Depression… Round 2….

“He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there shall be no more death or mourning, wailing or pain, for the old order has passed away.” Revelation 21:4

I look forward to the day that the pain is wiped away. As many of you know I deal with depression on a daily bases. That little voice in my mind locks me down. I can be riding the highest of highs, and life can be running so smooth, but in my head, I am never good enough. I will never have the strength to make it all matter. It can impact my mood, my daily life and sometimes it will make me so tired I can’t function. I get locked inside my own mind, and it feels like the weight of one thousand worlds is pushing my shoulders further into the ground. There is no other feeling on Earth quite like it, and Some days it gets the best of me, my life.

I ask God why? I mean, can I get a little break from being stuck in my head? Then again, I think we all have the little voice, or huge voice in our heads. But why? What is the point to the suffering, what is the end game? I really hope I am not the only one that questions this, But I don’t think I am.

To combat this voice  I have to take a step back, and try to think about everything rationally. This, by the way, is not so simple, as the problem lies in my own thoughts to begin with. So, after I get past myself, and I can actually think, I can reflect on the reason.  God is the only thing that has kept me in this world. The message is simple. Depression can be beaten, and you can be different, even if you don’t see that right now. The formula is simple you+ faith. something to believe in, and something to help you out of the ruts. For me, my faith in God, my Catholic teachings, and my support group, is the answer for how to get through it. No matter what, don’t stay locked inside, search for something that will help motivate you, and trust me you can make it. And maybe then, together we can all figure out why that voice exists – and how to forever silence it.

3 thoughts on “Depression… Round 2….

  1. Luke,, you should try what many in our family have: anti-depressants. There are both natural and man-made. I suspect that God put them here for us to find in our broken world to help us.
    You may also want to consider the writings of the Buddha, which say that the suffering is a result of our desires. Desires for things, people, positions, even desire for what is right. If we remove the desire, we will suffer less. As Rich Hanson wrote about in Buddha’s Brain, the first arrow which hits us may hurt, but the second arrow is the suffering caused by our reflection on the first arrow.


    1. I get what you are saying totally. Sorry I took so long to write back. I am on medications for this as well. It’s a combination of medication and religious education on my part. Every day is a new day, just something I can not get out of my own way. I just hope that everyone will learn and grow by something that I have said, or by seeing my journey.


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