“Jesus said to the crowds:
“No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draw him,
and I will raise him on the last day.
It is written in the prophets:
They shall all be taught by God.
Everyone who listens to my Father and learns from him comes to me.
Not that anyone has seen the Father
except the one who is from God;
he has seen the Father.
Amen, amen, I say to you,
whoever believes has eternal life.
I am the bread of life.
Your ancestors ate the manna in the desert, but they died;
this is the bread that comes down from heaven
so that one may eat it and not die.
I am the living bread that came down from heaven;
whoever eats this bread will live forever;
and the bread that I will give
is my Flesh for the life of the world.” John 6:44-51
Nope not the band bread, or the thing you made your sandwich with today…. The real bread, Jesus. Such a fitting story for me today, because at one point today, I had enough of everything. I could not take it any longer, everything was annoying my last nerve. I think that even air was irritating me. Not because there is so many things going on around me, or the fact that I feel like the world is on fire sometimes, but just because. I did not want to hear one more negative thing, I did not want to have one more negative thought, I just didn’t.
When I get this way, it is hard for me to stop. It takes a lot for me to rethink what is going on in the day, and just move it to a new feeling. Such is life with Depression, always has been, and it is something that I continually work on everyday. So, what did I do….. I did what any normal Catholic would do… I suppose, I just reread today’s reading. It helps to have that focus shift in the day to put things back in line.
So, the big question is… what is this saying to me? We put a lot of stock into the things of this world. All of the things that were bothering me, I either had no control over, or they were man created… amazing. As a whole, we try to make a heaven here on Earth… even our money, it has a slang word of “bread” or “dough”. Nothing like the fulfillment of false advertising. I was letting things of this world get to me, instead of relying on my higher power to bring me to a better place. What would you have done if you were in that place?