I am one hundred and twenty-three posts into this blog of mine. It has been a great journey for me, giving my inner thoughts and feelings to the entire world. It is something that has helped me in the process of healing my wounds from life. It has not been easy though.The first time I decided to start posting, I did not think it would get anywhere. I didn’t think that anyone would ever read it, or even really care. I was not doing it for notoriety, I was merely doing it as an outlet for my mind. I had to get the things that were tangling up the thoughts into the world, that way I could get them out, and start healing the open gaps they left behind. I was so scared, that first post. I was going to release to the world that I was impacted with the blessing of depression. The stigmas that go along with that diagnosis, they are bad enough, but I was going to let that out to everyone. It was just about as scary as the birth of my first child. I mean, it could have gone either way, either killed everything that I had worked for in my life, or it would have been fine. I am glad that I made that first post. It was one of the best things that I have done.
Looking back, it has been just about a year since that first post. I think I have grown spiritually, mentally, and personally since then. I hope that my writing is getting better, typos and all. I write because it makes me feel better, and to let the world know that no one has to be alone in the world when dealing with depression. In that year, I have had my life changed. I have found a new life within my spiritual life that I can only say is the grace of God working wonders for me. I have also had many people come, go, and those relationships change. Some of them for the better, others in strange ways, and to be honest, I think that is the natural course of life. I have had people read way more into my posts than need be, but in the end, this blog of mine has helped me overcome some of the biggest challenges in my life. It has shown me that depression is a blessing in disguise. Sure, there are days when it gets me and I can barely function, but it also gives me an insight to how others in the world feel that is so different and can help so many others in many ways. I have learned so much about myself, but at the same time, learned how to be a better person to my family and friends.
In the end, I am glad I started this. Here’s to another year of writing…….