“Christian humility is not within the virtue of saying: “I am not important” and hiding our pride. No, Christian humility is telling the truth: “I am a sinner.”” – Pope Francis
First and foremost, I am not a perfect person. In all actuality, I know I am a sinner. I know that I am going to mess up something along the way, even today. I don’t know what it will be, but I am sure that I will do something that is sinful at some point in the day. It might be minor, but yeah, it will happen. I will end up having to ask for forgiveness again, and try my best not to repeat that mistake again. The difference between the person I am today, and the person I was before my conversion is that today, I am not afraid to say it. I want so badly, with every fiber of my being, to be a genuinely good person. I know that everyday, I try my best to be the best husband, father, friend, family member and manager to those that I am around. I know that I fall short of that goal in some fashion on a daily basis.
I know that I fail at my goal of being the best person to everyone. Failure is not something that is always a bad thing. If I would have been successful at being “spiritual” all those years ago, I would not have fallen in love with Jesus, and the Catholic Church. If I was successful in handling my depression early on, I would have never had the experiences that I have had in my life. If I did not make some of the crazy mistakes that I have made in life, nothing that I do today would be possible. Today, I will be the first to admit to you, most of the time I am just reacting to a failure that I have made in my day. I am starting to learn that even in my faults there is something to be gained. I ask everyday for the wounds to be healed and the sins to be forgiven.