“For those who believe in God, no explanation is necessary. For those who do not believe, no explanation is possible.” – Introduction to the film The Song of Bernadette

There are just some things in the world that can not be explained. There have been many moments in my life that I just have no real logical explanations for. The only thing that I can say is that my Guardian Angel was with me and kept me safe. I have no other explanation that I can give in these situations.

I have been very blessed in all facets of my life. I can only attribute that to my half-hearted faith in God. I am perfectly open with the fact that I am not a good Catholic, and for most of my life, up until my conversion, and even a little after that, I was just kind of living. Even when I was doing that, God was still there, he just was not as prevalent in my life. I had no real reason not to allow him to be there, other than foolish pride. Being so prideful in myself that I could tackle the entire world and everything that comes with it on my own. Yes, my feeble self decided, through my actions, to take everything on my shoulders. I should know better, because I have never been one that operates at full strength. My worldly body is full of many restrictions, from asthma, to astigmatism, to depression, my vessel is not one that doesn’t require constant upkeep.

Again, I can not explain the spiritual nature of God, and how he operates. I can only learn to become a better servant, and a better companion in life to him. I do know, and I can explain, that when I am away from the Church, and when I do things that are only with my best interests in mind, life is hard. I am not saying that life is not hard already as it is, but it is harder to deal with. When I let myself be the person that I am supposed to be, and let my intentions be for others, instead of myself, life becomes surprisingly easy. The struggle is still there, but the actual problems seem different. That I can explain, but the reasoning why and how that works, I can not explain. I can only provide examples after the fact. There is nothing molecularly different in my body that science can detect to prove the fact that I am in line with the Holy Spirit. So, for those who have never experienced the Holy Spirit, I have no imperial evidence to show you, other than my own recounts of things.

This Lent, it is my intention to get back to basics when it comes to my relationship with God. I want to not forget that I need Him, when times are good, and when times are bad. I want to have everyone experience this in their lifetimes. I pray that I can become a better person through this process, and that if you are reading this, you can take a little something away from it as well.