Brothers and sisters:
The love of God has been poured out into our hearts
through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us.
For Christ, while we were still helpless,
died at the appointed time for the ungodly.
Indeed, only with difficulty does one die for a just person,
though perhaps for a good person
one might even find courage to die.
But God proves his love for us
in that while we were still sinners Christ died for us.
How much more then, since we are now justified by his blood,
will we be saved through him from the wrath.
Indeed, if, while we were enemies,
we were reconciled to God through the death of his Son,
how much more, once reconciled,
will we be saved by his life.
Not only that,
but we also boast of God through our Lord Jesus Christ,
through whom we have now received reconciliation. Rom 5:5B-11
Does anyone out there ever read a passage one day, get something out of it, then look at it the next day and get something totally different? Oh man, I know I am not alone in this at all, however, that is exactly what is happening for me with this wonderful passage from today’s reading. It has taken on a different meaning to me all together, than what is previously was saying to me.
In the not so distant past, this passage was really spoke to me about how Jesus was there even when I didn’t know it, and was still loving me, even though I was (and still am by the by) a sinner. He died so that I could be relieved of my burdens in life. How awesome a message that is, just in itself. Even today, that message is still there, and I still stand in awe because, I did nothing to deserve the redemption, or the salvation that Jesus has provided to me. I even ran away from it for many years. It wasn’t until so recently that I have discovered the fact that he was there all along, just waiting on me to move in His direction.
So, today, this passage comes up again. How perfectly timed it is. All this time, I have missed the very first line. No, not Brothers and Sisters, the fact that God’s love is in our hearts, given to us through the Holy Spirit. The fact that Jesus is still working through us, with us, and around us through the Holy Spirit. I am living proof of the power of that Holy Spirit working. I can attribute and come of the conclusion that every single thing that has happened in my life, it was all the work of the Holy Spirit working in my life, to help guide me to what my true purpose and path I am supposed to be on really is. Everything, the great highs, the super depressed lows, even the plateaus, all of that, all trying to get me to move in the direction that God is calling me. I just have started to learn to listen.
I can tell you, with great honesty, over the course of many years, in a very slow process, I have been changed. My heart has been softened, opened, and the true deep passions are coming through. Just to even know that one once of the love that was in my savior Jesus is dwelling within me is overwhelming at times. Even so, I am so happy and humbled by the thought. I know that there will be some that read this and go, wait a minute, that is so far out there, I can not even believe that this can be true. I wish that everyone could actually come talk to me, face to face, just so you could see I am not paying lip service to this blog or it’s readers. I really have had a change in me that is unexplained, undeniable, and first and foremost, one of the best feelings I have ever experienced in my life. I can only attribute it to God working in my life, and me allowing that to happen. I pray everyday that God would touch everyone in this same fashion. I am proof that the Holy Spirit is working, and can work with anyone who is willing to let go of the false control of the world.