As Jesus got into a boat, his disciples followed him.
Suddenly a violent storm came up on the sea,
so that the boat was being swamped by waves;
but he was asleep.
They came and woke him, saying,
“Lord, save us! We are perishing!”
He said to them, “Why are you terrified, O you of little faith?”
Then he got up, rebuked the winds and the sea,
and there was great calm.
The men were amazed and said, “What sort of man is this,
whom even the winds and the sea obey?” Mt 8:23-27
I want to believe that I have faith in God at all times, in all things, in all matters human. If I am honest with myself, sit down with everything that I have going on, I know that I am generally lacking in this. In the heat of the moment, just like the disciples on the boat, sometimes I get into a panic, and I tend to jump to the conclusion that the world is about to end.
I don’t want to live with the panic in my life. I want to be able to be free to trust in the fact that everything happens for the will of God and be happy in the moments in life. Even so, I am human, just like the rest of us, and I know that I struggle with this. It is a burden to carry around all of the worry in life, and to be honest, I don’t like carrying anything that is extra. I have enough things that I shoulder just fine without the extra added bonuses of frivolous things. I am getting better at letting things go, letting situations go, asking for help in my life from God, but I have so far to go in this venture.
So today, I pray that the Almighty God above shine his Grace down upon me. I am in need of His help to show me, in the moments of the day where I am full of dread and panic, that everything will be calmed. I want to have more faith in the path that I am on, and I am asking for everyone to pray for me, and I will pray for you in return. I want to find peace and solace in the fact that I do not have to worry about the journey, I just have to be in the moment and listen for the directions on where to go.