The past few weeks I have been really tired. I have not been sleeping well, things in my life have been really weighing upon my shoulders. Some of my worries are legitimate, others, I think I am just placing there in my own mind. Either way, the past few weeks have had me really waning in multiple facets of life. This includes my prayer time. As always, God likes to send me little messages, like this one:
Jesus told his disciples a parable
about the necessity for them to pray always without becoming weary.
He said, “There was a judge in a certain town
who neither feared God nor respected any human being.
And a widow in that town used to come to him and say,
‘Render a just decision for me against my adversary.’
For a long time the judge was unwilling, but eventually he thought,
‘While it is true that I neither fear God nor respect any human being,
because this widow keeps bothering me
I shall deliver a just decision for her
lest she finally come and strike me.’”
The Lord said, “Pay attention to what the dishonest judge says.
Will not God then secure the rights of his chosen ones
who call out to him day and night?
Will he be slow to answer them?
I tell you, he will see to it that justice is done for them speedily.
But when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?” Luke 18:1-8
This kind of hit me hard. I have a tendency to put my own time frames around my expectations of this world. I have to remind myself that God does not operate in my time expectations. He is not constrained by the time clock, because out simple concept of time is not something that He cares about. I have doubted a lot this past week that He was listening, or really cared about my simple needs that I have been calling out to Him for.
I know we all get this way sometimes. We feel as though we are wandering through life with no direction, wanting specific things to take place, and then expecting this immediate result to kick in. Our new found instantaneous worldly culture has conditioned us all to want the answer so quickly. We must remember that when we get this way, we have to believe that God is listening, and He will guide us to where we need to be, if we will just remain patient and listen to what he is presenting to us on a daily basis. We have to remember that even when it seems like He is not listening, we must be thankful for what He has placed in our lives.